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February 28, 2026

Jason Bonnicksen

THE WEIGHT OF TODAY

365 DAYS OF THANKSLIVING — DAY 90

THE WEIGHT OF TODAY
Do you ever have those days when you just don’t feel like yourself? Today, I’ve been far more somber than my usual, jovial self. I don’t remember waking up feeling the way I do right now; today—I suppose like most days—has been an evolution to get to this point.
Something hit me deep inside today, causing me to be much more reflective, quiet, and uncharacteristically serious. I think it began this afternoon while watching news reports about the unfolding events in the Middle East.
Like some of you, I guess I wasn’t surprised our nation (along with the Israelis) decided enough was enough with the Iranian government. Disappointed they chose this path, yes. Surprised, no. But when I turned on the news just to catch some headlines and witnessed one commentator gleefully giddy, with an almost evil, angry smirk on his face, my mood completely sobered, and I began to truly contemplate “today.”
 
“Today,” many people woke up around the world expecting their day would be like any other. But “today,” an untold number of people had an appointment with eternity—one they likely didn’t know was written on their calendars until they exited this temporal life.
 
Some of those people were atrociously evil by the standards of their own people (and millions around the world). Some of them, though—like the casualties of war living in Tel Aviv—were everyday folks who were just quietly trying to live their lives. I bet they had no idea this morning that today would be their last.
That’s a sobering thought, isn’t it? None of us really know when “today” will be our day. I know this isn’t fun to think about, but it is a reality of our world. We’re born, we grow, life happens in a flash, and then one day the alarm to eternity goes off (and there’s no hitting snooze). Some people live long lives, like my wife’s Grandpa Elmer, who lived to 102; others, like my nephew, don’t make it to 30. We just never know.
 
I don’t know if it’s a hazard of my occupation, but I tend to think about eternity a lot. Sometimes I wonder if I’d be ready if today were my last. Will God have forgiven me for my uncountable sins? Will His grace be enough to cover my unrighteousness? Will I have strived for holiness enough, knowing I’m all too human and prone to fail? I worry—is my soul ready for what comes next, no matter my fate? I pray daily, believing Jesus is all I need. Today, I prayed and prayed, asking God to make me ready for when “today” is the day.
 
Today, I’m thankful for today. I’m thankful for the minutes and moments with my wife. I’m thankful for the hours of rest, and the time to snuggle with my pups. I’m thankful for the life God gives, and the breath in my lungs. Today, I’m thankful for today—because what if today is all that I have left?

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